I need to stop the mania. I can't take Dep. or Zyp. and he won't give me a benzodias. I was over 200 lbs in june with heart attack. So why is he so stubborn about giving me the try with the Topomax? I am doing terrible and he wants me to get on Limictal. I have ill health already I was on Dep. and Lith. for last 25 years. Body is half way dead with obesity and heart ailments and severe swelling. Why is he so darn mean and cruel? I fear going to mental place due to being stopped and told by police 3 times this summer while in mania that they were thinking seriously about doing it because my behaviour in public was not right.