Sorry to hear you are in so much pain--I can relate. 15 years ago I had a very full life--got my PhD, travelled the world, knew what I wanted to do and felt like I was helping others. That changed and I am no longer young, very overweight, tired, unemployed, on disability, and alone. Life is NOT fair. I've been told to not concentrate on my past since I can not change it but to focus on the now--this is so difficult to do to stay in this moment. My mind is constantly thinking why did this happen, what caused it--I guess I need to focus on how can I change what I am now to make myself feel better. Succeeding in that is difficult and I'm in a battle everyday to not focus on my past regrets but to focus on the now.
I wish you the best. You are not alone.
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Originally Posted by whenwillitend
where did my life go? what happened? five minutes ago i was young, hot, i had a great job, i had friends, i had a life. i was suicidal. i didn't appreciate anything i had. iwas the poster child for "youth is wasted on the young". and now it' sover. i don't get to do it all over. it's gone. i blew it.
and now, my hair is turning grey, i look terrible, i can't even keep a job i'm really good at. everything i built over the last decade is gone. i lost everything i had.
it hurts.
i don't have th estrength to start over again.
i can't do it all over agin.
i can't deal with the pain anymore.
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