I'm glad that some people understand. My parents, right now, just don't get what I'm going through. It feels like they don't want to try to understand. This is just me feeling angry, but...yeah. I love them, and they've always loved me and shown it...but lately, I've been feeling like they're pushing me too hard to get better. I hid a lot from them, and when I tell them what's going on, they often will tell me it's just the moment...that it'll pass. Well...the intensity passes, but not what I feel.

Sigh. Yeah. Hopefully, my parents will read the book I got them on BPD.

Right now, my biggest songs that I'm enjoying listening to are "Perfect" by Greenday, "Take me as I Am" by Tonic, "Unwell" by Matchbox 20, and "Manic" by Plumb. Those all make me feel loved and heard...even just by someone in this world. Just...understood. My husband understands, yes...but this just calms me down. Hey. It's a good way to calm down.