im 22. its been near 4 years that ive no friends or contact with anyone but family and doctors. im not counting going to grocery store and saying hi or bye. which i rarely talk to cashiers anyway. i have no job no school really.

i feel lonely every once and awhile. i have severe social anxiety.

but sometimes i wonder how this might effect me in the long run. i have no people skills and they have seemed to get worse. i say 4 years because my main contact with people was through high school. and only then i had maybe 1 friend and then id talk to teachers. i was a severe loner (in order to explain how alone was).

its not so much that im really lonely but that its isolation is getting to me a bit and i cant connect or even really communicate with people. i mean its been degenerative if that makes sense? my skills its been going down because i talk to people less and less. you know? i live with my father but i still really only stay in my room.

im not sure if it would or can but how much worse can this get? isolation i mean.