Same here! I've had those impulses as far back as I can remember, though I've never acted on them. I remember being in Hawaii on the 18th floor of a hotel, looking over the balcony and wondering what it would be like to jump. (I wound up tossing fruit from the basket in the room to watch it explode on the sidewalk....quite entertaining, at least until I realized I could kill somebody by dropping a pineapple on their head from that distance.)

TBH, I hate those thoughts and they scare me, but since I've been on meds I have them much less frequently than I used to.