i find it hard to turn my emotions off.

even when i'm anxious and depressed (and wanting not to feel that way) i find i can't turn it off

sure their's been times i've felt nothing, but those times just worry me because i get to wondering.... am i even alive?. am i okay?

i think for me i've come to the realisation that emotions are a part of life- and though i hate them sometimes, i'd rather feel totally aweful about something than not feel it. if that makes any sense