I was taught at a young age to not show my feelings, good or bad because it might cause my father to drink and get weird. I numbed my feelings for a good part of my life and am still working on FEELING my feelings. You have them whether you want them or not and suppressing them just makes it worse. You can feel them and try to understand the ones you don't want and big time you do not have to act on them but you have to feel what you feel, to not is to be lying to yourself.