I understand your frustration. After trying two times for Topamax and getting a negative response, I found a new doctor to give it to me. Topamax is great. My moods have never been better. It really leveled me out. Exercize can be hard, especially when we're overweight , and it is so hard to lose with the drugs that we take. Topamax made me lose 25 pounds without exercize and it didn't take long.
My first doctor was hesitant to give it to me because I was on birth control pills and also he said it would make me feel "out there".
I'd push the issue with your doctor if it's what you really want to try. Or find a new doctor if that is something you can do. By the way, I take Lamictal along with the Topamax.
Tracy