welcome!! You sound alot like me...I cannot even go grocery shopping anymore...I have to send my husband...I am quite a bit older than you...but I suffer from severe depression and social anxiety...I do work but go straight to work and back again without looking anyone in the eye also...anyhow, I want to say...run...to not walk to the nearest psychiatrist...he will not make you talk until you are comfortable no matter how long it takes for you...but I guarantee he will give you meds to help make all your horrible symptoms get better...they have helped me immensely....after you are on them for a while you will be able to hold a conversation with him and also not be so afraid of being with other people...You will feel so much better if you go for help....I promise!! and until you do...we are here for support!!! Take care!! WE are here!!!