thanks for the thoughts and support. i do know first hand that this shall pass when is the big if.
perfect example is: i had a depression so bad 6-7yrs. ago i was basically catatonic. we had to resort to ect. long story short i just one day snapped out of it. real weird. anyway, i had an accident and lost my leg ( i had 7 surgeries in a year to try to save it) after it all i decided in my head that i was either going to continue my life as best as i could or crawl up in a ball and give up on my life. i chose life. i had no depression or mania for 5yrs. so, us humans sometimes have little choice in what were handed and then again our attitude plays a big role too. whew...its to early for this.
have a good day my friends!
mileysmom