Thanks, Maranara, for not judging me on my strange thoughts. One of my biggest fears is being made fun of, even if it's on an anonymous forum. I had huge childhood issues with being teased so it's still a huge trigger. So thanks

And thanks for the advice. I think you're right. I'll give it a few days and let myself get back into my routine. And I'm looking into ways to get my meds. Have you or anyone else heard of Needy Meds? I don't know about them but they basically ask for a credit card number to charge your meds to and I don't feel comfortable with that. But since I'm on generics, there isn't a drug program with the drug manufacturers. I called my doc's office before Christmas and all they recommended was Needy Meds but they had never heard of them. I think they just googled patient assistance programs, which is something I already did. I guess not many of his patients need help getting meds. Maybe I'll try the Mental Health center here.

Thanks again!