Sometimes i feel as though it would be way easier to just not feel anything. Right now i feel as though i have lost all the people that once meant so much to me ... a person whom i considered to be equivalent to my mother .. well i haven't talked to her since i got to school .. i miss her so much my heart breaks just thinking about her. Why can't i just let go and move on with my life? Why am i stuck in this one spot where there is so much going on around me, but none of it is important. Why can't i feel loved for more than an instant? ... Why can't I even cry......... or sleep .... just numbness.