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Old Jan 03, 2013, 06:30 PM
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Originally Posted by amandalouise View Post
my introjects were created the same way in which my non abusive alters were. I went through extreme trauma as a very young child, during these traumatic events my alters were created to do the things I could not handle.

one of the things I could not handle was abusing myself when ever I tried to tell someone. my abusers would create situations in which one would appear to be nice and friendly, get me to talk about what the other abuser had done to me and then force me to punish myself for telling. As a result of that conflict (having to punish myself for doing something good like telling someone I thought I could trust) in my head was too much for me. So my introject alters were created to protect me from having to punish myself. in my child mind It was the alters punishing me not me punishing me kind of child like logic. I know many people with DID that have introject type alters that were created to protect their self in this way.

I know the idea that someone would have protection alters who's job, purpose and reason for being is to harm /punish the host sounds confusing to some people. most people think of the term ...Protection... as a positive thing. But even though alters are created to "protect" the person, that protection can come in some rather abusive ways.

"protection" doesnt always come to a child in a positive way...kind of like a parent who is trying to protect their child from the harm of getting hit by a car if they go in the road will give some sort of punishment to the child if the child breaks the rule to not go in the road. that punishment may be time out, a spanking or a privilege is revoked. even though the child perceives the time out, spanking or loss of privilege as a negative, The punishment is for the childs protection against the harm of getting killed. my introjects were alters that took on my abusers characteristics as a way to protect me from having to abuse myself. most if not all DID people have at least one (or more) abusive alters that are there to protect the host in some way by abusing the host.
Thank you for that insight. I understand what you are saying. I am still digesting the idea of abusive alters and this helps me to see them in a different light. It is something I will think through. Thanks again
Thanks for this!
amandalouise