Much appreciated, Flooded. Sometimes I just have these "crazy" ideas and I'm so afraid to tell people because I know they'll just look at me like...there she goes again, being crazy. I wonder if this fear of sharing our thoughts and feelings really helps or hurts us. I wonder if non-bpds, or just non mentally ill people, would understand us more or just fear us more if we were more open. I know, when I was completely open about everything...the cutting, the suicidal thoughts, the self-loathing...they were scared of me. Just being thoughtful here...but I wish we could close that gap between the non and the mentally ill. Maybe we'd get better care if they understood us more. Just a thought...