it could just be me, and I mean NO disrespect to your family or "friends" but it sounds to me like you are surrounded by a$$holes.
I would LOVE grandkids, but if my daughter does not produce them then that is MY frickin problem, not HERS! 'Nuff said.
TRUE friends are about as hard to find as water in the desert.
Ever heard that saying "a friend in need....is a pain in the *****?"
Real friends won't leave, even when they should.
I dont know anything about your size, but skinny wont fix as much as you think. You might just meet a whole new line of a$$holes who are going to find something ELSE to make you feel bad about.
I know its hard...because I find it almost impossible myself...but you gotta love yourself before anyone else will. AND you gotta have enough respect for yourself to tell everyone to shove it if they dont like "you."
I cannot remember whose signature it is, but someone in PC has the signature "The truth will set you free, but first it will make you miserable."
Once you strike out on your own, don't expect many fans. You will have to be you and exude a confidence that attracts people. Again, I know, very very difficult!
But I am working on it every day...I will NOT give up!
I will find someone to love again...I will not spend the rest of my life divorced and alone.
But right now, after only 5 months, seems like an impossibility.
I assure you, set yourself free....and go live a life worth living...you are worth it, and you can do it!!