Hi Darlakat,

Sorry, I didn't see your thread right away. Are you seeing a therapist?

If you were in an abusive relationship it is common to struggle for a while to regain your self esteem. Sometimes the lows or self doubt can come from having someone put you down alot.

You say that you are trying to get "sober" too, are you active with AA groups? It takes time for that program to really sink in, give it time though, my husband gained sooo much from that, has been sober for over 20 years now and still goes to meetings every week. Its a great program, good place to meet others for support too.

Keep working at it, you do deserve it, just keep "growing" and enjoying the arts and music and letting yourself develope creatively.

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes