Hello.

I'm back on here.

Basically, I just need to get some things off my chest.

So, first of all, I have been doing better with my depression. It hasn't been that bad for a while. Which is good.

But recently it has come back. I don't know why I am depressed now. I just sort of am. Some part of me thinks that I actually like being depressed, which sounds crazy I know, but somehow, my depression feels like, somewhere I can be safe. So I feel like I'm making myself depressed. But I don't really know.

Anyway, recently I have been really obsessed with my body image, I don't want to eat, and I haven't been. But tonight, I got really, really, bad hunger pangs and I just broke down and ate everything and anything that contained sugar that was in my house. I have a horrible sweet tooth and I just could't control it anymore.

Now, I just feel awful. I feel extremely full, and fatter than ever.

I just feel so, so alone. And I'm just going crazy.

I'm a mess.