I frequently question my diagnosis. The only (well, mostly) reason I still consider it is because my psychiatrist is a very good clinition. That and the fact that i do better on my meds (although I have never been on them longer that 2 months in a row) and i definetly have some depression stuff that 's not normal. But I wonder-so much is attitudes and thoughts and poor coping-maybe that is truly my problem, not BP. My doc says no, but I am not convinced. I am still trying to find my answers. I've been off my meds and monitoring. Trying different things-how I cope/think. One thing I see for me is a **** load of self-centeredness. I do so much better when I am engaged with others-especially at my work. (ER) So, long story short, I don't think it is ever unhealthy to look at/question/wonder. Good luck to you in your search black pup!