Thank you all so much for your thoughts and prayers.

I keep replay last night in my head. He was so alive one minute and gone the next. I just keep thinking if we knocked on his door 5 minutes sooner. If I had payed attention to some subtle things. If I had done CPR better . IF I had took him to a Therapist myself. If if if and why why

He was a troubled soul . But there were some close moments between us the last few months. We had the reins so tight on him hoping more time would heal him.

We don't know how and when he got the heroin, or how much he took.

He had just heard him in the shower and getting ready to go out with one of his close childhood friends. It up happened so fast. I knew when I heard my husband break down his door. I knew when I say his face all blue..

But still it is so hard to believe.