firstly, can i just welcome you to PC. in time you will feel more and more at home here and slowly things will become better.

it takes tremendous strength to do what you are doing, to take care of a terminally ill friend, whilst going through a divorce and not having family to turn to.

it is easy to see why you feel this way, and why you have been diagnosed with depression. depression is an awful things and just snowballs unless you stand up to it. i believe that, by coming to PC you are standing up to it and we can stand up there with you, for extra strength. you dont need to be alone in this, no one does.

your daughter, 14 years old you say? at 14 she wont know herself properly, or what she wants. just give it time, when she hits a certain age she is going to want her mum in her life and when she does, make sure you are there for her. she will want you back in the future, shes just growing up, finding her feet.

once the divorce is over with, you can lead a happier life knowing this man is out of your life now. just stick with it, the divorce wont last forvever. all of what you are doing is leading you to being a happier, healthier person so just go with it.

i hope you find what you need here at PC. you certainly have done the right thing by signing up here.

please know that i am here for you if you should want me ok. just pm me anytime if you need someone. we can all be strong together.

simon