I don't know how?

...truth is there is no "technique"

is there one?....NOPE!...

it's just a damn instinct and a really damn annoying one to...

anyone ill with this crazy stuff would understand ...!!

how it comes and goes and not just gentle like brutal more like it!

to fall in a heap...collapse give up be a pathetic singular human mess!

...and then go manic upbeat as if??

nuthin' happened!....

RIGHT!??

but I sure feel damaged and this has gone on for years

and I still care