As an Autistic adult child at almost 28 years old, I feel like I'm under many different kinds of constant threats by my mom about my bad behavior. All she ever always wants to do to is to send me away to live with my other parent or a relative on the other side of the country, being as a result of my bad behavior and with me constantly driving her crazy and giving her too much stress in her life. No matter how hard she tries to send me away for the rest of my life, she wants to do it by putting me on a plane alone and she wants me to live out of her life and for me to give her a break in order to save her health. So she can live a life and trying to prevent herself from dying of a heart attack as one of her decisions. I know it's a wrongful and bad idea, but why would she have to send me away to live out of her life?

I can't take it anymore, I can't. I really can't take it anymore with my overprotective and panic-stricken mother who is always wanting to obtain her biggest goal of all: she still keeps on wanting herself to send me off and away back to New York to live with either my father or my aunt. As a result of me driving her crazy too much and constantly stressing her out. She even says she has to do it because she's too old to live like this at all, and it's my biggest fear to be afraid of it. And it has always been a constant threat towards me. I know I don't want it to happen, but she says she wants it to happen in reality. And I know she wants to do it right away in order to give her a break, to save her health and keep herself from dying of a heart attack. If she suffers and dies from it, I'll be ended up living back in New York for the rest of my life, and that means no more living in San Diego. That's what she says. And she also says it'll be for my own good, if she thinks she wants it to happen somehow. Even when my strict and harshful aunt who says as she kept on demanding me to give my mom a break as a result and in order to do so.

Well, I am not getting myself to be sent away! Not in a lifetime like this!