I am struggling with something that's been hard for me for a long time--expressing anger about my abuse. I feel like I can't even wrap my brain around what "expressing anger" is. For my whole life I have always denied my anger because I am scared of it, scared of how it make me like the person who hurt me. I only ever expressed my anger at him by self-injuring and hurting MYSELF. That part of m life is over, but the anger is still in me and has nowhere to go.

He expressed anger yelling or being violent. I don't know what healthy expressions of anger are. I don't want to do things like hit pillows or throw dishes. I actually tried those and found them very upsetting. I feel like I need to find a way to put words to my anger, but whenever I think about it I start to space out and forget what I'm trying to do. This is hard.

How do you express anger?