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Jan 04, 2013, 04:02 PM
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Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: Midwest
Posts: 17
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Originally Posted by allimsaying
> Even when there are people who genuinely try to help, I don't take it. I don't know why this is, It's not that I don't want the help, otherwise I wouldn't have bothered with all that typing, I just can't take it for some reason. Usually it's because they said something silly after which I've already said I couldn't do. But most of the time, I just read the response, and I'm just like 'No.'
I hope this doesnt seem insincere when I ask, Have you ever heard of 'treatment resistant'?
When I first heard the term it meant to me that the depression, this thing outside of me, hence, alien to me, was resistant to medical treatment. How shocking that was to me that some form of 'virus' could overtake my body and mind and resist to be treated, as though it were a cancer cell or some such and therefore alien to me and something over which I had no control. IT was treatment resistant.
Well, that is both comforting and not comforting. On the one hand, I can say that something else has control of me and that being true, I am not responsible for any of my own actions or sayings. On the other hand, I am at this things mercy. Which would I rather be?
People come and offer words and thoughts to us in hope that it may help. Its the giving in the thing that heals. No, we dont always know what to say, and we sometimes say what we shouldnt. But our heart is in it. Its really sad to care and give what you can and sometimes is not received as it was intended, but we keep on, knowing that someone had the right words, at the right time, when we ourselves needed them. Though we failed, we meant well.
Im not sure that this applies to you but I do hope you will hear some words that reach you here at PC.
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Excuse me, but the term 'treatment resistant' makes a lot of sense to me ... but how does one get around it?? Sounds like my husb completely. One counselor told me my husb has 'learned helplessness'. He's been a patient in one form or another for so long that he simply expects people to take care of him.
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