Hello Trytosurvive, and welcome to the forum. It does help finding things that fit doesn't it? I find so, having a dx or being able to identify with a set of criteria gives me structure that stops me haring off all over the place losing the plot by not knowing what's right wrong ok not ok etc etc...

Sounds like you've managed life very successfully (I could probably say the same for me) but that this stuff percolates away in the background messing everything up despite all apparent successes.

Not sure about the narcissistic parenting. I'm sorry you had a rubbish childhood by the sounds of it - if you can make the connections between your mother and how you turned out that's a big step forward.

I hope you do find things here to help you - this particular forum seems quite slow (a fact of the disorder itself) but other forums on PC have loads of interesting and helpful stuff going on. It's a whole little world in here

Torn