It was so unfair. She was the first I told about the abuse, I was the first she told about her abusive family. She knew I was suicidal, how I was affected by the trauma, she knew all of that. She kept saying 'it's not your fault' and suddenly it became my fault. But I do miss having someone to talk to, not only about those horrible things but also those trivial ones. Like thinking 'wow, this is awesome, can't wait to tell somebody about this'- but I have no one. At least I know what people really think about the abused- we are blamed. It's not like they say 'it's not your fault'- they actually think the opposite. I want someone to care, someone who would be interested but yeah, nobody likes me.