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Originally Posted by Chrysalis12
I am also very happy I started posting here too! I know that this is my life, and from art history I know that there were many artists who experienced similar emotions to mine. However, sometimes I feel that my life does not belong to me because every person I love owns a part of me. Their words and actions feel like they are my own. So when they are disappointed, I am disappointed. But it's strange. Because when they are happy, I feel nothing whatsoever. Did you feel that way too?
However, it is comforting to know that I can come here for advice. And I am trying to regain ownership of my life and expressions. It's not easy though.
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You know quite honestly, I was trying to please people. Trying to be a beautiful image that everyone wanted me to be. I never thought or felt for myself. I had no sense of "self". Is that what you're going through? Because that's what it sounds like and I can totally relate to it. You are very creative, and I think you should continue with your writing and your art to find out who YOU are. I never really found myself, but I know WHO I am. I am someone who likes staying home, having a drink sometimes with friends, spending time with my boyfriend, and trying my best to be the best employee to my boss. I am no longer trying to "be" anything for anybody. I am just me. And you should be you.