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Originally Posted by PlatinumHeart
You know quite honestly, I was trying to please people. Trying to be a beautiful image that everyone wanted me to be. I never thought or felt for myself. I had no sense of "self". Is that what you're going through? Because that's what it sounds like and I can totally relate to it. You are very creative, and I think you should continue with your writing and your art to find out who YOU are. I never really found myself, but I know WHO I am. I am someone who likes staying home, having a drink sometimes with friends, spending time with my boyfriend, and trying my best to be the best employee to my boss. I am no longer trying to "be" anything for anybody. I am just me. And you should be you.
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I am trying really hard to please everyone around me. It's as if people are mirrors, and what I see reflected from them determines my concept of "self." I am always comparing myself to those my parents, teachers, and friends consider perfect. And I always fail. I am hopeless because I am not good at anything. Even if I attempt to ameliorate myself, I am just not good enough. I am afraid to find out who I am because what if my true self is a failure? Well, maybe sleep will help me. Sweet dreams and good night.