((((((( OrangeMoira ))))))) Gosh that sounds overhwhelming and I'm glad you were able to post here and tell about how you're feeling and what's happening for you. Sending you lots of hugs of support

I'm just about to go off forum unfortunately but wanted to post you a hug and to say I'll be back later to reply more fully. Your last comments about flipping out really resonated with me and stuff I'm currently thinking about as well so have more to say on that.

It's interesting your feeling this fast moving impulsive run away energy, reminds me very much of some books I've just been reading about trauma (author Peter Levine). He talks about the impulse to flee being frozen in trauma and that if you let your body speak it can complete that impulse and start releasing the trauma. May not relate to you at all but it's an interesting idea that might be worth thinking about.

More on everything later.

In the meantime I hope you are hanging in there and even if your coping methods seem drastic, if they help, I hope you don't feel bad about using them

Torn xxx