I am having an anxiety attack and it is because of chemistry. My exam is in around ten days and i dont know anything. Its all my faughlt i know that. But what i dont know is what im doing. I have not paid attention all year and kept saying "ah, it is future myselfs problem". I have already completed 70% of the course with a 74% (btw im in gr. 11). 15% is the exam and 15% is the lab expirement. It is a miracle i have 74% so far and dont want to go any lower than that. I dont even have notes to study cause i never copied the board. I dont have anyone to borrow notes cuz no one likes me. The teacher left to have a baby and we are stuck with a supply who doesnt speak english or know anything. I dont even know what im supposed to learn. Im so stupid. And i heard peoples school habits never change. So ill be doing the same thing and fail university. And waste money and be homeless. And ill make my family so ashamed. And ill be in trouble and my dad will yell at me a lot. Im such a loser. I really dont even want to be here anymore. Help i feel terrible.

Also i quit drinking alone for new years. Could this be what is making me so anxious? And if so should i continue drinking till my exams are over? I dont think my drinking is the problem but i think it may contributing to my anxiety