Calista, do you have anyone in your RL who can help you out? Sometimes you just need to say to a friend or sibling... I need you to call and make me an appt (or call and make an appt and tell T not to cancel even if you call) and come pick me up and no matter what I say you make me go... you drive me and wait for me...

sometimes you need to accept help from other people until you can help yourself.