Hi Calista + 12,

Sorry you are having such a hard time. Like others have suggested, could you write things down for your therapist to read or email him before the session so you don't have to say the words? Perhaps even write it down on paper, take it to the therapy appointment and then you can still choose whether to be brave and share it or not?

In terms of getting to the appointment, take it one small step at a time. First getting yourself ready, then getting out of the house, then the next bit and keep telling yourself that you can change your mind and go back home at anytime, even when you get to the therapist's door. That's how I get through things that cause me anxiety. I tell myself if I can just stay there and get through the first 5 minutes, then that's great, another five minutes even better, and if I want to leave I can. Sometimes it helps to know there is a way out when you choose, you don't HAVE to stay anywhere you don't want to.

I hope this helps and you find the strength to get some help. Thinking of you.

Screwedupme