Whoever allimsaying is he/she seems like a smart person. These annoying comments like "you gotta take the first step" is quite contradictionary since the first step is just to get that comment unless this person found you out, which doesn't sem to be the case. You've already posted more than 5 posts here thats A step whether it's the first or 1000:d.

From personal experience it seems like your problem isn't really that you do nothing in your everyday life or that you do nothing to try to change it, cause we've already agreed upon that you have done something to try to change your life.

What I would guess is your actually problem is rather your mindset. Even if you do something great you don't really appreciate it do you? Even if you got a really nice meal or saw a good movie or picture or whatever woud you be able to appreciate it at the moment?

Think of it... are you really not good at anything? If you don't think you are what have people around you said about it? Have you during your whole lifetime never recieved a possitive comment for something you've done? Sure you have. But you aren't thinking of that now are you? You don't think you've done anything while you know you did when you first posted here or when you first posted on the other forums you mention.

I am guessing this cause I am like that myself...or was... I might be wrong and in that case pls tell me. If I am right then I know it's not that easy as "just start appreciating things" or turn on a smile and live happily ever after. I just wanna know whats your "actuall" problem and what might something only half true and half made up by your mind. Pls don't get upset in any way by this.... I can be a 100% wrong and I am just trying to help.

There is no last. As long as you live, you'll have to battle life.