I'll keep saying it: I have given up on understanding myself. My moods, at least.

How I could go from how I was feeling to thinking everything's great and not understanding why I was so depressed.... The hypomania looks like it's back. Slightly, at least. Long, long overdue. I don't know whether I'm bipolar or if it's all due to the meds, but at least I can look forward to feeling great. And the shift happened so suddenly as well. Hours before I didn't feel like getting out of bed and had no energy at all. Now I've finally washed my dishes and I'm eating cereal. If it wasn't before dawn I'd do laundry and shower and such too.

Thanks guys, really. When I was depressed, I literally could not think outside of it. It amazes me how much of a control it has on me; it amazes me even more that I can't fully comprehend how I felt now that I feel better.

I'm going to take it easy and get those incompletes. I'm worried that this mood shift will be short-lived, and I don't want to stress myself and risk that. Maybe I'll see my psychiatrist sooner and work things out (I have an appointment for the 21st). Then again, he might be fully booked. I don't know when I'll get my papers and exams done, but I need to take it easy. I think I'll be able to study for one exam (should be pretty easy, relatively), and maybe manage another. But I'll need to read the texts I haven't read, and write a final essay, and prepare for a written exam. Maybe he'll be able to accomodate me a little. How, I'm not sure. But he's already been incredibly understanding. I should see if he's around on Monday and set out a plan for tackling my assignments. Then again, he might not be around. I could always e-mail him, though.

Thanks everyone, again. Here's hoping this new mood lasts, and I hope all of you feel better soon as well, if you're going through tough times. It's a horrible, horrible feeling, depression.