Look you got a problem here - a solvable problem that doesn't require drugs or shots or therapy and the ONLY thing you have to do is talk. THAT'S IT. It doesn't cost you ANYTHING but a bit of your time. And now you complain that it's getting worse? Of course it is! It's all you think about - it's all you talk about! You keep telling yourself all this negative stuff and your body is simply believing you! Then you start complaining about the new problems that you yourself created in this unending circle of events!!

And now I'm guessing that you've gotten to where you can't really trust your body anymore because it's been programmed to become inactive. Well it's up to YOU to start fixing this. TAKE YOUR LIFE BACK!! IT WILL NOT fix itself. But YOU can fix this one problem that makes depression significantly easier to deal with.

Find some kind of way that you can take some time away from the kids, the hubby and anyone else that shares your last name and go out and relax. Go talk or sit at the beach, ride some horses, ride some dragons I don't care what you ride but find something that you can do to just chill out around other people and nothing is expected of you. As far as I know this is the only way. You need to connect with the world again and you're going to have to go out in it to start making this better.