I just wasn't sure about gaining it back. For one and a half years I have done my best to get to a healthy normal weight for ME. Are you sure you didn't put on pounds like crazy? I spent money, energy and time, along with correct eating procedures to get back to a size comfortable for the person I am and can live in my own skin, but I can't live in my own skin with being over 170 which I am right now. I am sure. And that is all. I will not change my mind.