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Old Sep 21, 2006, 09:04 PM
PoeticLiscence PoeticLiscence is offline
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What behavior have you exhibited (do you think) that has separated you from others? Do you think it's been deliberate? In pondering your dilemma I find myself asking, "How can one have zero, 0 , zeeeerrrrooo friends? Not one?"

See.... I DO deliberately separate myself and yet there are those "hangers on" who refuse to let me go. While it's appreciated I find myself a little annoyed all at the same time. But they are there, none the less ... How ever few -- they remain my friends. You, at 25, have no friends at all (as you've said) which lends me to believe you've chosen this and worked it out to your liking and have worked to make it happen. How did you pull it off? Is it what you truly want?

Here I am at 44, utterly jaded. No ego here when I say that I've got some years on you. Sheesh! Still..... I have only a couple of friends that I would miss if they disappeared. Otherwise, "what the helllllll!!!!" All the rest ----- even if they percieve they are "close" to me ..... I could cut loose and not know the difference. (Keep that a secret. They might be hurt!!! or maybe relieved???!!! Hee hee.)

I have come to see the reclusive lifestyle as one totally void of others (except those that simply must be there like doctors, grocers.... whatever......). It's a CHOICE. It doesn't happen naturally. By nature (I think) people gravitate to people. A "home body" lifestyle is where one likes to be at home more than out and therefore is home more than out but still has somewhat of a social life.... limited YES but existant. That's where I find myself.... I think. (After two strong scotches with a splash of soda.)

At 25 I was barely tolerable. Are you? And if so.... why? Not to put you on the spot here, just to get you to ponder it. "Am I alientating myself and is this really what I want?" If so, then bravo! You're getting there with zero friends, but if not (as your post would suggest) then let's dig into that a little.

Know that I don't have to know you to know that you are a valuable person by the simple fact that you exist. You aren't here by accident. You have value that I personally may never come to know fully .... but it'd be great if YOU did! In the meantime.... let's just wonder together if ZERO friends is really what you want. It's okay if it is....but let's just look at that a bit... okay?