I didn't find out I was borderline until about 9 years ago. I too am wishy washy but have begun to work on that. I am starting to make decisions on my own then letting people know that I have done it. Like my gastric bypass surgery...I researched it, got the doctor, lined up the appointment then said I need someone to go with me on such and such a date and shocked the family because they didn't think I could make such an important decision.
My therapist tells me that I will be able to just have the diagnosis of borderline tendoncies. I am striving for that. I recommend that you get the book Angry Heart. It helped me out a lot work through my emotions being in turmoil so much. Being told you have bpd isn't a death sentence my T tells me its just a learned set of behaviors that needs to be unlearned and I believe you can do it.


Jbug