Thank you Blackpup

I need you guys so much. With the bipolar it makes me a little more fragile.
My family and friends have never been able to understand my illness.

I had just got off the seroquel and weaned down a little on the Ativan.
I have been taking 100 mg Seroquel to sleep now. I am taking a little more Ativan than before.

I had started to work out again with my husband. A New Year a new me. I was going to get stronger. I was going to be able to help Jason more.

Never could I have imagined what God's plans were. I am so mad at God right now, for taking Jason.

When he took my Mom when I was 22, I thought that was my dose of sorrow and suffering.

What have I done ? Why my Mom and now Jason ?

What does God want from me ? What should my mission be now ?

Please help me to understand all of this and the bipolar, too !!

I feel there is something I should be doing, but I don't know what it is !

MY tears won't stop! I feel I can't breathe !
I need a million hugs