Hi BlueCoral nice to see you still posting, good one .

I'm just checking in, feeling absolutely rubbish things are just getting out of hand right now - I always freak out when I lose sight of what I can be doing to help myself, and it now feels like I'm back to square one and nothing has changed. This just goes on and on and on and I can't seem to make myself better no matter what I do. Times like this I hate being me and get really scared at being inside my own head so the less time I'm alone with my thoughts the better