Ditto, I feel all the time like I'm really raging, but can never get it out .

For what it's worth I think that preferring to feel angry can be a defence mechanism, anger is much more empowering and makes you feel a whole lot better than tears sadness grief loss powerlessness etc...

So maybe you actually NEED to cry? Maybe if you just go with whatever feelings are coming up, you'll get to the anger in the end? Just throwing this out there, I'm a dunce when it comes to feelings and have problems even recognizing them, but I do relate to how frustrated you must be feeling

Torn