I feel so out of place. I don't quite fit in anywhere. Even here I don't feel like I belong. It always seems like everyone would rather talk to someone else. Maybe I'm just whining, but even IRL I don't fit it. My brother is the perfect one, he has a PhD and a wife, and a good job. I am a college drop out, I work in a factory, and that might even be lost. I'm gay, which means that I am always somewhat of an outcast at big family functions. Everyone says they're okay with it, but it is obvious some of them are not. My gf's mom has never really been okay with me because I 'turned her daughter gay'. Then you add in the fact that I have schizoaffective, and how can I fit in, when I don't even know if half the stuff I see is even real. I always thought that after being an outcast in high school, being an adult would be better, but I'm not quite sure it is.