Hello,
I'm not really sure where to start with this. It's hard to explain what I've been going through practically my whole life so I wrote it down in a list and decided to post it here hoping someone might know what is wrong with me. First off let me say I'm taking depression medication and ADHD medication neither of which have helped me. I'm at the point where I don't know where to turn to get help. I don't know what to do. So here is the list of things that I've been struggling with:

1. It's hard for me to remember things.
2. I cannot hold an intelligent conversation.
3. I am socially awkward.
4. I can't finish projects or do simple tasks.
5. I'm unable to express my feelings without being awkward.
6. I don't have the willpower to do anything such as: school work, workout, read, cook, do laundry, see my friends.
7. All I really do is sit in bed and watch tv.
8. I've been fired from 2 jobs in less than a year.
9. I don't feel like I'm all "there".
10. I don't have a passion about anything.
11. I just want to hide from the world.
12. I can't focus.
13. I just don't seem to care about anything.

It's getting harder and harder everyday for me to put on a straight face and tell people I'm okay because deep down I'm really not.

If anyone has gone through some of the same things and has been able to turn their life around somehow I would appreciate any advice you have.

Thank you!