Hi tmarie... I am a little bit late in replying to this, but I just joined this site yesterday! I noticed that you haven't posted here in about a month, so I hope everything's ok.

I can relate to a lot of what you said. Like you, I am a college student in my last semester as an undergad (though I am majoring in engineering). I am sooooo sick of school -- I just want to get out of here!

I always feel like people are watching me and laughing at me too. It's not about being alone (I actually have no friends at all, nor a boyfriend, so I am always alone, but that's not usually what I worry about); I am overweight and very self-conscious about it. I feel very vulnerable because ANYONE can merely look at me and laugh at me for being overweight. I don't even have to say or do anyting stupid -- just by being visible, I leave myself open to ridicule. People make a lot of judgments about overweight people (e.g., fat people are lazy, stupid, etc.). It seems like you have similar feelings being alone -- that just by appearing in public alone, you are vulnerable to being judged by anyone who sees you.