ooh...
yea ive been drinking a lot lately. i woke up throwing up and headache you know. then thought about drinking again tonight. yea and the pot. i just feel like the drinking makes me more relaxed and the pot helps me think clearer...like open my mind up more. ive just become very insecure about my mental health. because i only pride my intelligence and i feel like im losing that. ive been dealing with this stuff since around 9 but i never really started to have cognitive difficulties until i was 20. everything worsens slowly.

then i just..gave up on myself