Hi
I have never done this before so i hope it makes sense.
Saying that i'm not sure where to start or even what to say.
I'm here because i need to talk to people i need to express how i'm feeling. I had a very very low spell a few months back it was extremely scary, i got through it well i blanked it out atleast. Now though i know i'm heading down the same route i'm trying to block it out but this time i just can't. I want to gain control of life again i want to make people smile like i used to, More to the point i want to smile and laugh like i used to. I have three children and they are suffering so much with me being like this, mummy just doesn't play or read stories with them, mummy doesn't take them to the park or to parties i just can't. I know im going on and i haven't even said what the problem is i just don't know how to do it. I've never been one to talk about my problems i've always been that girl who listens to everyone elses and helps them, now it's me that needs help and i don't know how to ask for it. Everyday things seem to be getting harder or something else happens, goes wrong i don't want to loose my friends or partner because i can't open up or just explain things. All they see is a moody miserable stressy snappy ill woman who doesn't eat has no energy and never smiles. I don't want to be like this anymore i want to be better i want to be me again. This is why i'm taking the first step and opening up even if it is a small amount and to people that i don't know and can't see but it must be a good start right??
If anyone has any suggestions or words of wisdom (snap out of it will probably be what i get) then please please help!!!