>>Do I sound like someone who deserves sympathy? No, of course not. I have regrets every waking moment. What I did was horrible and I am so sorry for it. I never wanted my life to go this way. I wanted to be happily married for the rest of my life. I avoided dealing with other issues in my life and that resulted in me not handling the recent pressure I felt correctly.

You do deserve sympathy. You were abused as a child. Often this returns for them to abuse others when they grow older. You are obviously feeling guilt and pain over this, and I can't help but feel sorry for you, honestly. Maybe you could talk your experiences over with a counsellor or with us...it might allow you to put your past behind you and move on...


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