Hey Torn,

Cool name by the way - very fitting. Yeah I have a continuous low level fire burning. I never, ever let people see that I am angry. Usually I hold my anger and wait until a valid upsetting thing occurs in work, and then really let fly, releasing as much as I can professionally. The rest of the anger turns upside down into depression. I feel really angry about (insert the real life **** im dealing with) and more generally i think its frustration that turns into anger, born from not actually being myself, like its ..... because I dont act as myself, purely my defensive shell (even to myself) im frustrated.

I dont know if that makes sense. I guess what I'm saying is that because I am not me, i get angry. I find myself displacing that anger onto others all the time, and I have to remind myself to be fair - the situation I am in isnt anybody elses fault but mine. Its my **** to deal with, and my **** to accept.