"I always thought that after being an outcast in high school, being an adult would be better, but I'm not quite sure it is. "

I feel the same way. I've always been a loner and continue to be. I don't really have friends but I've got my family who support me eventhough they think I'm nuts. But I've always felt out of place. Never really fit in with any certain crowd or style. I just do my own thing and if anyone has a problem with it... Well, F 'em! Sorry but it's just how I feel.