Hi GWTW, SI, eating issues and shopping too much are all addictions. People need addictions to improve their mood. They need to improve their mood because they have so much pain inside.

I would suggest for you to talk to your T about all this and why it is that you are in pain. She also needs to know about your SU ideation. I read in your profile about your SA. Have you talked to your T about this?

What do you need from your parents? Sounds like they aren't good at setting boundaries and they aren't good at communicating with you?

Please continue to keep us posted on how you are doing?